Thursday, August 18, 2011

God and His Love

                           Have you had a season (a day, week, month, year or years) that you just felt like the Lord was not there for you? Well I have and for a moment I have taken my eyes off the source of my strength. Which is the Lord himself. This makes you wallow and feel depressed and like there is no hope. The Lord is our strength and when we feel low or alone we need to go to Him and His word.
                             I can see your mind now, "Why would I go to the one who has left my side and allow this to happen?" Well the answer is in His word and though you may not feel it, going to Him and His word, will comfort you.
                           Romans 8:39 is a perfect example of God's love for us and how he will be there for us, it says, "Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
                            Did you catch that, nothing can separate us from God's love. No matter what we do how we feel, God is still there loving us. Just take it all to Him he already knows He just wants us to tell Him and to go to Him. To praise and rejoice in Him in the good and the bad times.
                           The Bible is full of examples of people that fell on hard times but still turned to the Lord. For just a few examples, David and the book of Psalms is a place to look for examples of how to cry out to the Lord about anything, and He will be there for you. After all David committed adultery and murder among other things and he still was a man after God's on heart. The other example can be found in the book of Job. Job lost everything and was God's faithful servant and remained so even when his own wife told him to curse God but he never did he turned God in everything that he went through and God was there every step of the way. The last example I use is my own life right now, for the past few years I have experienced many valley experiences, the failure of my marriage, the loss of income and the decline in my health and while I did not depend on the Lord everyday of these struggles on the days that I did it was amazing, glorious and the most peaceful days I have had in my life.
                          The point, take it to God anything and everything He can handle it He wants us to, that is the way we build that relationship with Him that we and He wants. No matter when it is, in your down seasons in the valley or on the mountain top when you have plenty. And also He will still love you no matter what.
                           God bless you through out your day, week, month and year. No matter where you are in your walk with Him, No matter what you are going through God bless you.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Prayer During Warfare at She Speaks

Well, I was going through some of the information that I had received at the She Speaks conference and came across this prayer I wrote to the Lord while I was there. It was after our first speaker evaluation group and though I did not get anything horrible said the enemy started his usually thing and started making me doubt myself and the fact that I was in pain from a back injury did not help. I had many things going on made it easy for the enemy to get his way but instead of sitting in despair I wrote and said the follow prayer to the Lord;
My friend, my peace giver. Please help me get these thoughts out of my mind and under control. The thought that I am not good enough to speak on behalf of your kingdom. Help me to relax Lord, you got me here for a purpose and I do not want to miss ‘such a time as this’ and not obtain all the blessings that you have for me.
From this prayer God laid on my heart the following; My child I have it under control. Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10. And at that time I went to his word and had my time with Him and He calmed my spirit and eased my pain.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Boundaries and Letting Go

I have always had trouble with keeping boundaries with people. In the sense that I let them use me until there is nothing left. Most of the people I let do this is my family. Why you ask, well I am a people pleasure by nature and due to abuses that started at the age of 5 until now really. I still allow them to use me. I guess it is because I want them to love me they say it but, they do not feel act like they mean it.
The latest episode is, I have been letting my sister to drive my car putting a lot of wear and tear on it driving back and forth on the highway (along with other things she does). Anyways, last night we had a tire blow out and it was on our way home from a long driving trip. So….three hours after I called AAA they finally show up to fix the tire. And at this point I am irritable and in pain, I was ready to snap at any moment. My emotions where so negative I could not hear God telling me it was going to be ok. But, He once again showed me how wonderful he is. As the AAA guy was getting ready to leave he says to me, “You know you are truly blessed, I am an ordained ministry and have been dealing with my wife who is dying due to alcohol issues and I feel the Lord telling me to tell you, you are blessed, have a good night.” As he walked off, I mumbled a weak God Bless you and thank you as I was in awe at the first part of his statement. “You know you are blessed”. I know this but I was not feeling it in my spirit at the time or here recently. Which is so human of me to want to ‘feel’ blessed. It should be enough to know I am blessed because I am a child of God.
As I got into to the car to drive home with my sisters, son and great-nephew awaiting the smart comments and negative attitudes that usual go with my family. The Lord made it quiet (which if you knew us you would know my family is never quiet) and laid on my heart that I need to let go and let Him handle all the details right now of my life. With so much going on I have found it hard to do this and have missed out on blessings that the Lord has had for me. He also said to my heart, What you do for the least of these you do for me, referring to my family but in this He also let me know I am allowed to say no. I do not always have to say yes to everything that everyone wants because it just is not possible for me to be or do all everyone asks me to be or do.
Then he put several things in my mind and deep in my heart ; First, Matt. 6:25 which tells us to not worry about our lives and what we will eat or drink (He is there to carry us through) this was because I am now needing a new tire but not working due to an injury makes it hard to jump up and buy a tire. Next, he told me that while I do not have to do everything my family asks that I should remember to extend mercy and grace to them. And finally He really hammered in that I need to let go and let Him handle things and that I will have peace. So we will see what comes of this, I am letting go God.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

His Love Endures Forever

Psalm 118

New International Version (NIV)
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
2 Let Israel say:
“His love endures forever.”
3 Let the house of Aaron say:
“His love endures forever.”
4 Let those who fear the LORD say:
“His love endures forever.”
5 When hard pressed, I cried to the LORD;
he brought me into a spacious place.
6 The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
7 The LORD is with me; he is my helper.
I look in triumph on my enemies.
8 It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in humans.
9 It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in princes.
10 All the nations surrounded me,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them down.
11 They surrounded me on every side,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them down.
12 They swarmed around me like bees,
but they were consumed as quickly as burning thorns;
in the name of the LORD I cut them down.
13 I was pushed back and about to fall,
but the LORD helped me.
14 The LORD is my strength and my defense[a];
he has become my salvation.
15 Shouts of joy and victory
resound in the tents of the righteous:
“The LORD’s right hand has done mighty things!
16 The LORD’s right hand is lifted high;
the LORD’s right hand has done mighty things!”
17 I will not die but live,
and will proclaim what the LORD has done.
18 The LORD has chastened me severely,
but he has not given me over to death.
19 Open for me the gates of the righteous;
I will enter and give thanks to the LORD.
20 This is the gate of the LORD
through which the righteous may enter.
21 I will give you thanks, for you answered me;
you have become my salvation.
22 The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone;
23 the LORD has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes.
24 The LORD has done it this very day;
let us rejoice today and be glad.
25 LORD, save us!
LORD, grant us success!
26 Blessed is he who comes in the name of the LORD.
From the house of the LORD we bless you.[b]
27 The LORD is God,
and he has made his light shine on us.
With boughs in hand, join in the festal procession
up[c]to the horns of the altar.
28 You are my God, and I will praise you;
you are my God, and I will exalt you.
29 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever

                                      A few days ago I had a mini melt down. I took my eyes off the Lord and focused on myself and what I could do to better my current situation. Well, I can do nothing in my own strength it has to be done through God. This is a lesson I have learned repetitively through out my life you would think that I would finely get it. Well no, I what the call a “hard learner”. I sometimes feel that God should give me a pass because of my childhood but he keeps molding me into an even stronger woman of Christ than I already am. He is my rock and my strength and I need to continually depend on Him. Today, I came upon Psalms 118. It has uplifted my spirit for the day reminding me that the Lord’s love endures forever, especially the portion in which the psalmist talks about when he is enduring hardships. I feel like my life has been nothing but hardships and valleys for a few years and a few days ago as I said I took my eyes off the one person that will never let me down in any way and who will always see me through those hardship and valleys. The Lord our God. He will carry me throughout these times and will love me all the way through them because His love endures forever, I just need to stay focused on Him everyday, every hour and every minute. And I will be able to rejoice and continue to rejoice no matter what the day holds.